Five Reasons Why Abby
Puts Up a Wall
Abby Abernathy is your normal college freshman, except that
she has a gambler as a father, she played poker with professionals starting
when she was 13, and by the end of freshman year…she’s married. She didn't jump
into her marriage though; it took heartbreaks and allowing someone she didn't
know into her life, mind, and heart. To understand the ball of fire that is
Abby, you have to know her background and why she has a solid wall built around
her that only a few can penetrate.
1.
Her Father Blames Her
Abby’s father was a gambler, and he was winning, until
Abby’s 13th birthday. On her 13th birthday her father’s
luck changed for the worse. He started losing money, causing him to drink.
Starting on her 13th birthday and continuing to the present, she is
now 19, her father blames her for the turn in his luck. He believes that she
took everything away from him. Abby’s father,
Mick, yells about Abby, “‘If it weren't for her, I woulda had my own money. You
took everything from me, Abby. I have nothin’ ’” (261). This quotes exposes that
Mick blames Abby for his bad luck, making Abby put up a wall of defenses around
her. She thinks that is she won’t let people in, then they can’t hurt her.
2.
She Used to be a Gambler
Because her dad believes that she took his luck away, Abby
herself started playing poker to make money for her father and for herself. She
was forced to play professionals and to win all the money she could to try to
keep her dad happy. Abby talks to her father, “Mick’s eyes were suddenly animated.
‘You can double that in a weekend…’” (260). This quote shows that Abby used to
be an extreme gambler, a popular gambler. Abby wants to stay away from gambling
but this quotes tells the readers that Abby could make, and used to make, a lot
of money off of gambling, so she tries to hide it.
3.
She Doesn't Want Anyone to Know Her Past
She moved away from her home to have a fresh start, but she
is constantly worrying someone will figure out that she is “Lucky Thirteen,”
the name she was given because her luck picked up on her 13th
birthday. At Travis’s dads house Abby
says, “‘That was the nickname the papers gave me. And the story wasn’t exactly
accurate.’ I said, fidgeting,” (233). This quote demonstrates that Abby tries
to push away the past and tries to keep the attention away from what she used
to do.
4.
She is Afraid of Who She Was
Abby doesn't want to be “Lucky Thirteen” anymore, in fact
she doesn't even want people, including her boyfriend (later husband), to know
her father’s name. She is scared of her past: the gambling, drinking, and fake
ID’s. She doesn't want to go to Vegas to win money that she knows she could
live off of. Abby later apologizes to Travis when he finds out about who her
father is, “‘I’m sorry I didn't tell you, but it’s not something I talk about,’”
(235). This quite reveals that Abby keeps things to herself, even from the most
important people in her life, because she doesn't want to be the same person
she used to be.
5.
She Doesn't Want to Drag Anyone Down With Her
Abby thinks that if she slips up and breaks the “perfect”
girl way, that she will slip back into her gambling and drinking lifestyle. She
is afraid that is she does she will be the weight that drowns everyone that is
close to her. She separates herself from things that could potentially be a
setback in what she is trying to make herself. She pushes people away to make
sure that she doesn't hurt anyone with her old ways. In Vegas Abby says to
Travis, “‘I don’t want you there, Trav….If I’m going to win fourteen thousand
dollars in one weekend, I have to concentrate. I don’t like who I’m going to be
while I’m at those tables, and I don’t want you to see it, okay?’” (262). This
shows that Abby tries to cover up her “rebellious” side, in order to keep the
people she loves out of trouble.
This is important because it shows that some people are not
who they seem and may have something to hide, but it also shows that you can
get to know someone if you wait patiently. Some people need to separate
themselves from their home and that is their decision, and people should
respect it.